I'm irritated today and my feelings are hurt. Since my mom got back together with her boyfriend, she doesn't call me anymore. For about a month, we spoke everyday. Now that he's back, she doesn't call and it's all I can do to get her on the phone.

I wouldn't complain so much about this except for this is "how she is." It's irritating because as soon as they argue, she calls me again.

One thing I have noticed when I DO get her on the phone...she doesn't sound happy. It always sounds as if she's preoccupied or stressed out. I hope he's not the typical mexican man. God, I hope she doesn't bring one of them to my house.

I'm still nervous about the both of them coming to visit. I don't know what to expect. I wish it were just my mom coming. There's so much we could do. But now that he's coming, we have to revise everything. I have no idea how we're going to get any work done on the house this coming month. We really don't have time to spare. But I can't imagine taking both of them there. What would they do? There's no TV. Hell, there's no radio. Tina and I go there to relax. It's therapeudic working on the house.

This just stinks.

Well, we finally got the appointment time for our home study. It's scheduled for April 26th.

I'm trying to get my spring cleaning done now since I won't have time in the near future. It's been hard for me to get here. Seems like every time I turn around there's something else that needs my attention. The house is pretty messy and dusty and I can't stand that. It puts me in a crabby mood, then I get to where I can't think straight. There's so much to do. It's hard to know where to get started.

My mom is coming up from Texas on the 18th. I was really excited to see her, it's been a while. But she called yesterday and asked if her boyfriend could come, too. I couldn't believe it! I tried everything short of saying no to get it to where he couldn't come, but in the end, I gave up and just purchased his ticket. I've never met him before. He doesn't speak English. What the hell am I supposed to say to him? I can speak spanish, just not very well. We're a house full of women. Lesbians. All our friends are lesbian. We know absolutely NO men. None of our friends speak spanish. They're the whitest people I know. We're in the state of Montana! My mom, Maria, mom's boyfriend, and myself. That's 4 mexicans. Four Mexicans in the state of Montana. Ha ha. I know there's more, but this is crap.

I'm nervous because I'm afraid he'll be short with my mom in front of me. Her last boyfriend was this way once with her-in front of me-and I regret so badly, not saying anything to him about it. I wish she would just leave him home. I don't know him. She's dragging him across the country. I have to be nice. There's so much I wanted to do with my mom. Now, I have to make different plans to include him. It's going to be a lot of work to make sure they're entertained. Did I mention the visit is for 6 weeks?

I must say though, Maria is a God send! She offered her place to my mom and her BF. She'll come back and stay with us. I don't think I could handle my mom and her BF staying here.

The thing that is getting me through this is: Through out my life, my mom has met every one I ever wanted to introduce to her. A couple of my girlfriends and I have stayed with my mom with out my mom ever meeting them first. So, I figure I can buck it up and try my hardest to be nice and accepting of this man. I just hope he treats her well.

So, Easter is coming up. I think my dad and grammy will come to dinner. Not sure what I'll make, though. Probably prime rib. Sounds yummy.

I better get to cleaning the house again.